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<December Diaries II>

I really want to succeed in this fight. Having the right people at the right time, the right tools, the right situation, and the right family.

Previously I have mentioned that we all are fighting for something, and most of my friends are doing so as well.

This one, however, I cannot fail at.

It’s rare that I have to share my own experiences, but this one really is one near dear and deep to my heart, a hidden pinecone in the tree stems that is dictating what I do now.

One place. One place shy of achieving my goals. I blame my past self wholeheartedly, an immature version of myself that cause all of this, and I can’t accept the truth.

I’m a believer that life gives you second chances, and luckily I’m tasked with another one. Not enough, just not enough.

The unstable shaky platform of myself really gives me nerves, and destiny is really uncertain.

The only thing I have to do this month is “just do it” Nike.

The one thing holding me back from my dreams, and the one thing pushing me forward.

A common problem among teenagers is overthinking. What if this will all go wrong? What am I doing in life? What am I fighting for? I have no direction in life. Will this affect my dream?

Getting past the mental obstacle is a challenge, but I’m sure we’ll all get through it.

After all, we’re growing up and there’s lots to learn in life.

Some call us immature, but I call it growth.

I’m not romanticising kisses, nor the moment of love, maybe I am.

But the only thing I can do is just do it. Dreams are coming. And they will.